So I skipped two days. You probably realize that doing something everyday no matter what is hard. But really why is it hard? Writing this blog takes me at most half an hour. I can find a half an hour. Yesterday, I spent a half an hour in Old Navy killing time. The day before that, I spent way more than a half an hour watching many NCIS episodes...one after another. It's amazing how we waste time when all we want is more time.
I was thinking about this a lot the other day. I am taking these tests to get out of taking math and science in college. I am spending my summer learning Calculus and Biology (again) so that I don't have take and retake these classes. It is giving me more time during the semester to focus on my major classes. It is giving me a lighter course load and less stress which allows me to be someone that people actually want to be around. It also allows me to give more of myself to others which is at the core of who I am.
But even then, it's tempting to give and give and give. I often try to get busy for God and at the end of the day I am spent, exhausted, and even sick sometimes because I don't take care of myself. I find myself behind in my school work. I am often frustrated by the fact that it takes so much time to get things done. And no matter what preparations I took to reduce my stress beforehand, I am always stressed. Why is this? I think we are addicted to using up all our time in ways that often bring glory to ourselves before they bring glory to God.
They might start out that way. I often will do something for the greater good because I want people to see my love for God and I want God to be given the glory, but if I get something out of it, there is a more likely chance I will do something for the greater good again. It's not a profound confession, but it is the truth. I love serving God. Don't get me wrong. Serving Him has led me to realize His call on my life, but even those feel-good feelings that I get when there's a victory for His kingdom leads me to want to be there in that position of service again and sometimes I wonder if those are the right motives.
But that's neither here nor there right now. When it comes to time, I think no matter what our motives are we need to say no sometimes. It doesn't make us heathens and certainly doesn't make us bad friends or family. It makes us sane!
There's this exercise that some of my friends do when they are hired for certain positions at school. They have to block their time for specific activities as to force time management. It allows them to understand what their priorities are and helps them to see what's important. I am going to do this starting Monday. I wonder if maybe you would do it to. If any of you are actually reading this.
Anyways...take care of your time because it's precious and it's limited.
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